Tuesday, March 31, 2009
she got wisdom tooth prob and now her rite cheek is swollen.and the swollen is pretty obvious compare to ytd 1.
now she got the difficulty to open her and eating plus talking.
so the dentist ask her to eat the med so the swollen part can slowly recover.
by tt time,she can remove her wisdom tooth bcoz she open her mouth widely and the dentist can help her to X-ray.
but then the fee for the surgery is so damn ex.
it cost around 600-900 dollars excluding the med and X-ray fee.
so if include those fee,the total cost will be around 800plus.
then my darling got to discuss with her mum abt it.
but her mum told her not to pull out the wisdom tooth.haix..
pls let my darling pull out the wisdom tooth bcoz it will be quite pain for her in the future too.
so it better pull it out fast than later.
after we went to see the dental,went back to darling house and accompany her.
watch American Next Top Model.
haha..
i like all the short hair gal in the show.
they r cool and nice looking in those short hair.
yay!
i got patapon game in my sis's PSP after so long i forget to bring.
haha.
2day i finally remember to bring my sis's PSP.
so ya..
came back home around 6plus like this.
juz had my dinner.
so full rite now.
had bacon and soup for dinner.
my sour throat is so uncomfortable now.so itchy inside.
ytd nite,darling told me tt her mum was talking to her abt our r/s.
she said i was immature for this kind of r/s.
then she also said that darling is wasting my time on this kind of r/s.
her mum said give me 3 yrs and i might realise wat the thing i really want,maybe i will find out tt les r/s is not really wat i want and i will still prefer guy in the end.
but then the 1 who started this r/s is me..
i am quite sure that when i 21yrs old,my thinking will somehow change.maybe my though will be mature and taste for clothes will be different too.
but i hope darling can adapt my changes.
the qn whether i will think tt les r/s is not wat i wanna and i will prefer guy in the end???
i got think through this qn.
ya..maybe it my sis influence from young.
but then i have like girl be4 when i in secondary sch time and even in primary school time.
i never even deny the fact that i like gal.
no 1 know it bcoz i never tell any1 be4 and they oso never ask me.
and it my first time in this kinda of r/s.
after i have been together with darling,i learnt alot of things abt r/s and she also make me think maturely sometime.
she make me learn that in a r/s,we not only need to love that person,we also need to know more about them,shower them with more care and concern.
sometime i will do some little surprise juz to see her smile and make her happy.
we do quarrel like last sun but then those quarrel didnt really affect our feeling for each other alot and our love is still alive.
so the qn abt me liking a guy in the future wont happen.
bcoz through this r/s,it make me somehow realise that gal is still better than guy in somewhere.
gal are more caring and they are willing to spend every second of their time with their galfriend.
and they will know somehow wat their galfriend are thinking,wat are their worries and every small little thing like wat they wanna.
and i will prefer girl in the end.
so darling this is actually wat i wanna to tell you.
u dun have to worry so much about me changing too much.
i will still love you from the day we start until the end.
even if there a guy who impress me alot,i wont want him bcoz it too late,i already got some1 else in my heart already and tt u.
so hope those quarrel we have wont really make u leave me which i don't want it to happen.
so ya..
haha..my darling muz be waiting for me to login to maple.
she muz be very impatient now bcoz she send me a msg.
okie..
tt all..
bye everyone.
sad that school reopen in another few wks time.
but happy that our 7th month anniversary is around the corner and it next wk.
i cant wait anymore..haha..
Sunday, March 29, 2009
it was raining very heavily 2day and i was wet although there shelter at my bus stop there.
darling suddenly jump up of no where and she kinda of shock me.
she sounded so excited but then i showed her my black face bcoz i dunno y lahx..
then darling was angry with me for showing her black face.
i start to get angry when she show her black face to me too.
then we round n round the causeway pont.aimlessly walking.
went timezone and look at ppl playing maximum tune.
saw her friend there oso.
she still kinda of bad mood and i oso..
showed my black face from the time we step out of timezone to the time we standing outside metro.
i dunno wat wrong with me 2day.
been waiting to see her from ytd until now??
or the waiting time is too long??
or even bcoz....eh...my outfit???i dunno..
it juz totally not me..
then we started to quarrel and quarrel.
i trying not to cry out in public oso bcox it will make the situation even worse.
then i hugged darling.
it make me feel so much better and i have somehow totally calm down by darling hug.
maybe darling next time can juz give me a hug then i will calm myself down in her arm.
it really make me feel so much better.
then we went to buy foods from our fav place.
so nice to eat takoyaki.so long never eat tt already..so nice and delicious la.my fav..
we went to civic 4th floor and eat.
saw 1 of the mac auntie at civic.
was eating happily..everything is fine between us.
but then something bad happen again and it make darling angry again.
i didnt wear the necklace she gave me.
i have forgotten to wear it alot of times.
so this make her angry with me.
as i have said..2day i dunno wat wrong with me.
and i have forgotten to wear the most important thing which mean alot to us.
i wont forget to wear it again.
if i forget then i should go do some reflection.
n darling can choose to walk off and ignore me.
it really very hurtful to darling and to me too.
we took bus to sembawang.
went there to shop.
darling was angry all the way from the interchange to we board the bus.
we started to quarrel again.
haiz..2day we quarrel alot of times.
then at sembawang,we start to quarrel again.
then we went starhub shop and look at some of the phone and oso the price for the phone.
shop around the mall too.
then went to the arcade there.
after tt we took bus back to darling house.
went vista point to buy ice cream.
my fav brand ice cream.
i dunno how to spell the brand.
was eating while walking to her blk there.
sit at the playground near her blk.
then we chit chat.
everything is fine now.
then darling lie on my leg.
haha..so cute of her..
at around 9plus we went off..
home sweet home.
2day is really a bad day for both of us.
quarreling non stop.
from the time we meet until nite time.
haix..both of us are hurt by each other words and facial expression.
own darling a day.
and i going to make it up to her tmr.
i am very scare to lose her.
dunno 2day quarrel have make her reach her limit??
i not sure.
hope she still can stand me.
i will really really try very very hard not to make her angry and show her black face again.
i really do love her.
i wanna to stay with her forever and ever.
i not going to bother about my mum anymore.
she have kinda of find out something abt me tgt with darling
she kinda of know about our r/s
if she found out then i not going to care.
i will still stay strong and face any prob tt will be happening and coming.
darling and i gg to face it tgt.
and hope our r/s can withstand it and stay strong.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
bcoz the previous 1 is too messy and the colour is too black.so dull.
so in the end decided to change it.
haha..
i think now my this blog skin is simple and nice.
been busy working this few days.
other then tt i accompany darling to soccer training and match.
so ya..
i am tire of working opening everyday.
my mind will be half awake and my eyes are very sleepy.
but i dun mind working opening bcoz can get to spend some time with darling after work.
darling juz get her fixed this mon.
luckily it no longer tt pain after 3 days.
for the first 2 days darling cannot drink cold water so she got to ren and control herself drinking cold water.
haha.
tmr final ITE against NTU.
darling is going to play although the doc ask her to rest for 2 wks but she still insist in playing.
so ya..
will be going NTU together with darling.
haha..
will be coming home late tmr.
bcoz there will be prize presentation tmr.
so ya..
i going to sleep be4 the clock strike 12.
haha.or else will get another scolding from darling again.
alway get scolded from darling when playing maple.
but then it the way i learn.so ya
cant wait to see my darling tmr.
and it going to be our 200 days together.
haha..
another 13 days to go and it our 7th month anniversary on the 7th of april.haha..
although there alot of up and down,but our love is still alive.
haha..which is a good thing.
and hope our love wont die down.
wanna to be with my darling forever and ever.
another 30mins more and i going to sleep already plus our 200 days together.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
she pull her muscle on thurs game.
i dunno how she gg to work,train and play with the pain she gg to feel.
i dunno wat to do..seeing her so in pain with her injuries.
i onli can feel my own heart pain but then i cant feel the pain she having now.
tt really make me feel so useless.
maybe i should join some rough cca when sch reopen and get myself injury so i can feel how pain is it to get so many injuries.
i juz cant stop crying now.
seeing her fighting so hard for soccer.
really make me heart pain seeing her like this.
but then i wont stop her from playing soccer bcoz it her passion.
juz wanna her to be careful when fighting for the ball.
sry darling for been no mood juz now.
bcoz i really miss u alot and u cant come over my house.
but then i dunno tt even though u r injury,u still come to work juz bcoz u wanna to see me.
i really feel so touch and it make me feel bad for showing u my no mood juz now.
i am so usless.not understanding enough.
not independence and so weak.
cry baby.
am i really a good galfriend in the future?
i dunno..
Saturday, March 14, 2009
gg queenway to buy her soccer boot,totalninety.
then we went over there in the afternoon.
was actually planning to meet earlier 1 bcoz my uncle going away for few months or lesser so intend to go see him 2day be4 he go off but then my sis said he wont be home so early then i decided to meet darling first to buy her boots.
meet darling at 2.30pm.
while talking abt mac.we some how quarrel and i showed her black face.
i was pretty angry at tt time.nvm..dun wish to mention it since it over.
juz wanna to tell darling tt i am sry for showing her black face.
but after tt angry moment,we did have a fun and happy trip to queenway and ikea.
was shopping around queenway shopping centre to find a cheaper price for the boots.
in the end we did manage to find the cheapest shop among the rest but then dun have darling size.the size they have is too small for her.
so we went to the shop at first floor and juz buy from there bcoz onli got that shop selling junior size for tt type of boot.
so after buying the boots,we went to ikea and shop.
looking at all the furniture.some of it is pretty cool and nice.
hope i can have a giant bed plus a bath tub at home.
wow...so damn nice la..can soak in warm water when the weather is cold like now.
then a big bed to sleep after a warm bath.haha..so shiok..i wanna tt..
haha..
we have our dinner at ikea.
i got myself chicken chop and while darling got herself salmon.
after shopping at ikea,took a train back home to woodland.
reached woodland,darling went civic to change her schedule.
bcoz next sun darling got match at braddell.
after tt,darling send me home.
time passes so fast.haiz...pretty sad..it been long since we have a day out together and shop around.
hope another day like this will come.
i wanna to have more of it..sob sob:(
playing around and all those time together.
Friday, March 13, 2009
[Verse 1:]
I'm calling his phone up just to tell him how much
I really love him cause he's everything I want
He listens to me, cares for me
So why'd you even leave?
God sent me an angel up from above
That's going to love me for life
Things would be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe and say
[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
Tell me what it is, cause
I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
If this isn't love
Tell me what it is, cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn't love
L-o-v-e what is to me
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]
[Verse 2:]
I'm selfish cause
I don't wanna share
Em with nobody not even those
People that came before me
But see I ever believe.
God sent me an angel up from above
That's going to love me for life
Things would be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe and say
[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
Tell me what it is, cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy (No)
If this isn't love
Tell me what it is, cause I never felt like this baby (No)
If this isn't love
L-o-v-e what is to me
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]
So if you got real love
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
The kind of love that fits right like a glove
Let me see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up, if this isn't love
Cause I know I ain't crazy
I know I ain't trippin
I know I ain't slippin
I know that it's love
See me with my hands up
If you think I'm dreamin
I know I ain't dreamin
Cause this reason maybe
And I know what is love
If this isn't love.
[Chorus:]
If this isn't love
Tell me what it is, cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
If this isn't love
Tell me what it is, cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn't love
L-o-v-e what is to me
L-o-v-e Oh...
If this isn't love [x2]
to keep my blog alive and since i got nth to do.
ytd soccer match result ITE against NUS draw.
so ya..
good game.
darling have did her best in the match except for 1 mistake.
so darling dun be sad over it and learn from it instead since everything is over.
darling having soccer match next wk.
her schedule is pack with soccer training,match and abit of space for me.
and this bit of space is already enough for me.
dun wanna her to tire herself too much and putting too much stress on her.
darling is still injury.both leg are still injury due to the previous friendly game.
haiz..hope she can faster recover from her injuries.
everyday got training and match,i dunno how is she going to recover.
heartpain seeing her like this.
after the match we went back to woodland and eat.
ate at a 24hrs coffee shop.
i am so damn broke until i dun have enough money to pay for my food so darling pay for me and i help her pay for her and mine drinks.
then the auntie forget to put egg in her soup so she came over with a egg and put into darling soup.
haha..forgetful the auntie..
then after eating,we went to take bus home.
darling dun need to cross over the bridge onli i need.
but then sad tt ytd which is 2day i cant go out.
sad sia..
then was asking darling how am i gg to see her 2day.
sad la..
then when we say goodbye to each other i still sad sad over it so i didnt cross over the bridge and walk straight to the other bus stop.
then while walking,darling was running toward me.
darling said she worry abt me walking alone.
so ya..
darling was very tire already and leg still injury,she still run to me bcoz she worry abt me.
was so touch and darling was sweet..
glad tt i have her..so caring:)
while walking darling missed her bus..haha..saw her bus behind us.
then she wait tgt with me for my bus.
was msging her until she fall asleep..haha..cute sehx..
tt wat happen ytd nite after the match.
this coming sat i going to have a fun fun day with darling.
bcoz she got nothing on and i not working oso.
YAY!!!
finally can go walk walk with darling.
been looking forward to tt day.
i wanna to go shop shop.
never go shopping for a long time already.
but then sad thing is i onli can see,cannot buy.
bcoz i am so damn broke.
i wanna to spend my red packet money but my mum is helping me to save so she dun allow me to spend any of it.
argh..nvm..as long as i get to spend time with darling can already.
haha..tt all for now..
darling is still sleeping..
gg to wake her up now..
hehe..
Thursday, March 12, 2009
the pic i dunno how to resize it then the image wont be so blur.
resize to small it too small then resize to medium it still too small when i pass the code on the template,it dun look like medium size at all.
so now i dun bother abt it anymore.
should i put other pic instead of this??
i dunno..still thinking??maybe will change again.
ytd went to darling training ground.
watch her train then do alot thing tt she dun like.
haiz..
didnt do much thing ytd.
got go her house in the afternoon then we play maple tgt.
but it onli for awhile.
haiz..
nvm as long as we get to spend some time tgt,it already enough.
bcoz when sch reopen i dun think we will be able to spend alot of time tgt
darling got attachment and when sch start i focus alot on my studies.
but then my priority is still her.i will still find time for her.
the biggest prob is not this.
i cant go out until so late like 10 plus 9 plus like this.
bcoz i will get a very serious scolding from either of my parent when i come home.
it not holiday,it sch day so it totally different.
so i can imagine how it like not seeing darling for 3 days or even 1 day.
haiz..i will miss her like siao 1.
then i dunno i will have the mood to study or not.
or maybe we can see each other for a few hrs then after tt we wont be seeing each other.
so ya..
i dunno..seriously dunno.
i am too use to having her by my side and seeing her everyday so i cant dun see her for 1 day.i will be very no mood if i dun see her.
hope we can stay tgt in the future bcoz can see her everyday even after a day of work.
will never get sian seeing her everyday.
told darling abt it ytd.
suddenly i drop a bomb to her while walking to the 912 bus stand.
then she become like no mood no mood already.
when my bus come i straight away walk toward my bus and didnt turn back and look at her.
msg her and ask her how is she.
then she didnt reply my msg so called her and she said she very sad until she dun wanna to talk to me.
so i hang up the hp and we didnt talk much.didnt msg her until after awhile i send her a good nite msg.
then after tt she replied me and we start to talk abt the thing tt i have mention to her earlier on.
until it 12plus then we start to go to sleep.
sry darling tt i suddenly mention this things to u and turning my back on u without even turn and look at u.
i know the mistake i did ytd.
wont do it again.
2day darling got game against NUS.
hope her team can win and play well in the game
good luck darling:)
and lastly i hope she wont get any injuries during the game.
the thing i dun wanna to see most.
juz wanna her to be alright.
and darling dun forget u have to do some head check up so can find out the prob for ur sudden headache.
we shall find a day when u r free.so ya.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
going to keep blogging abt my everyday.
ytd,i send darling to school bcoz she still having exam.
since i not working so i send her to school and i miss the time sending her to school early in the morning.
was sleeping on her shoulder throughout the journey to tamp.a very comfortable place to sleep on.
have breakfast in her school tgt with Jiali.
so they went in to sport hall to do their exam and me waiting outside for darling.
darling came out of the sport hall at around 1hr.
she did manage to get some question correct.
hope she can pass her network test.
then after her exam,went over her house to watch Marley and Me.
so be4 tt we went to fairprice to buy cup noodles and some tibit plus drink.
have cup noodles for lunch.
yummy.
and ytd was like raining non-stop.
wat a nice weather to eat something hot.
the movie was so sad at the end and darling cried..
haha..cute sehx darling.
i got a galfriend who like to talk to chip and play with soft toy.
saw the children side of her..
so cute..
went home for dinner.
played maple.
having doc appointment later on.
so ya..
shall continue blogging 2nite.
wont be seeing darling 2day ba..
miss my darling:(
Sunday, March 8, 2009
I missing u rite now..................sob sob..............haha...............
wanna to see u now:(
looking at ur friendster photo..haha..
feel like uploading this pic..
hope u dun mind...haha...
haha..it ytd actually.should have post ytd but then nvm.
went to watch darling friendly game at Turf city..
the field is so inside that we have difficulty finding the places.
the weather is okie at first but it not after tt bcoz it was so damn hot but then i like it..can sun tan.
i love getting darker.i dun like fair skin.
the friendly game got 3 half.
we reach the field around 10plus i guess.forget wat the timing already.
darling didnt play the first half.
and the opponent scored the first goal during first half.
they will really fighting for the ball.dun care they injury or wat.which is so damn wow.
i was sitting down there watching the other team fighting for the ball and trying to get the ball.
they are really into the game.so ya.
darling played the 2nd half.
but then darling was injury on the ankle and blister.
heartpain la seeing her injury.
her coach sub her out.
she was hopping all the way.
darling oso so in pain when she take out her tight boot and all tt stuff which is on her leg.
then her friend help her to bandage her all ankle so it wont be so pain
was watching the rest of the game tgt with darling
the total score 2-1
the opponent win.
after tt darling went to toilet and change.
we have lunch tgt with the coach and the rest of soccer team mate.
but then i didnt eat bcoz we meeting our sis later on.
darling is too hungry until she cannot tahan so she eat first.
we took a cab down to amk hub and meet my sis there.
after eating,we shop around amk and then after tt went back to cwp.
shop around oso.
went time zone and darling play maximum tone as usual.
saw auntie Mary and her friend,Vanessa.
watching darling from 1 game to the other game.
went off at around 7 like this.
at first seeing her play is still okie but then after awhile i starting to feel very sleepy liao
cannot tahan.
told darling tt i was sleepy then she start to get angry bcoz slept quite late last nite.
was cutting and writing those short msg and at the same time i was watching house.my fav show.
went to my LK to have dinner.
darling treat me dinner.
thk darling:)
haha..so sweet of u..
then went to house blk there slack awhile and gave her my small surprise.haha..
nth much actually..
darling went home then she didnt sleep.bcoz she was watching flightplan tgt with her mum.
was angry abit juz now when she told me during work but then haix..nvm..next time pls if u r so damn tire after soccer,go and rest can.have an early rest since next day u r working morning.
i was sleeping quite early ytd.around 9plus going to 10.
so ya..
didnt do much on 6th anni but then it okie.
spending time tgt.it better than nth.
so ya..
half a yr have gone..
love my darling alway.
although we do quarrel sometime.
but then we shall let this quarrel to build up our r/s.becoming stronger.
hope tt we wont quarrel so much so it wont oso affect our r/s.
we shall walk through the rest of our r/s hand in hand until death do us apart.
and i was seriously touch when darling said the three words to me while watching the movie.
so long she never said it to me already.
and i know tt my darling is still care abt me.
i dun like when she said she not gg to care abt me and letting me to do whatever i want.
i dun like tt kinda of feeling.
was hoping her to said more in the future but not so much until it like..u know..haha..
so ya..
although she is alway busy with soccer but then i cant stop her from doing her fav sport.
having lesser times tgt but then nvm.
i will be looking forward going shopping or going out to have fun with darling.without soccer on tt day.
very sian this holiday.got no mood n no motivation to work at all.
no money to spend oso.
so sian lor.
i wanna to play until siao
wanna to have a movie marathon
wanna to stay over and have fun.
i dunno when i will be doing all those i have mention.
maybe someday..haha..looking forward to it.
was playing maple rite now tgt with darling.
keeping dying until my exp is zero.
portion is going down.
very argh....
i not gg to care anymore.
gg to train until i lvl up.
so while recovering,i shall blog and dun waste time.
now gg back to train again.
haiz..i dun wanan to die..sob sob..
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
wanna to talk to her now.
but something happen in the afternoon.
i hurt her alot alot alot..
i really do love her and seriously she is everything to me.
and lastly she is so important to me tt i cant live without her.
i will die without her in my life.
i have been thinking when i showering,eating and watching tv.
i am seriously going to let go the thing tt happen in the past and move on with my new love life.
dunno is it too late to realise this.now then i realise tt i actually dun trust her alot from the start of our r/s. but then i think tt past is past and now is now.i love her and i going to trust her with all my life.i believe tt everything she said she mean it and i dun wanna her to lose faith in this r/s since i am the 1 who tell her to have more faith in our r/s.
i have found the person i love the most.showering her with my love but then i still make her angry and upset.
why am i making her angry everytime??i love her so much and why do i still make her sad and angry??
been thinking through this qn and i think tt part of the quarrel is bcoz of me making the same mistake and also alot alot more.
both of us r tire of it.
both of us wanna to stay happily together.
both of us love each other so much.
and lastly both of us think tt our r/s should not end bcoz of our quarrel.
Dun wanna everything to end here.
wanna it to keep going until the very end.
